Time With You

 Time With You


I asked you

Once

If you had ever

Taken vacation

Without us

Just you and Dad. 


Your answer was

Fast

Decisive

No. 


I asked you 

Why? 

You responded, 

Because

Your Daddy and I knew

We wouldn't have you for long. 

And there would be time 

For travel

Without you

Once you had gone. 


You didn't know

That we would be

The ones

Who had time left

To travel

Without you. 


Time

Plenty of time

To do

To  travel

To adventure

After you are gone. 


You were right. 

Time is short. 

Thank you

For sharing your time

I have no regrets

Of my time

Spent with you.

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